I was struggling with the idea that I should make reparations for the crimes that have been committed against so many of the people of God by men who were/are in positions of authority. I did nothing wrong. I’ve been fighting against the whole thought of reparation so I took it to prayer. I was convicted to do it after prayer and reading many posts as to why. I was convicted in my soul, but my mind wasn’t agreeing. For me, the cover-ups, lies, secrecy, and lack of transparency strike a chord close to home.

I looked up reparation it and means, “the making of amends for a wrong one has done, by paying money to or otherwise helping those who have been wronged.” Under that, it had a little box that said the word origin is Latin and the late Latin meaning was “make ready again.” I can get behind that definition. More than anything, I want to make our Church ready again. So I will make reparation and join in the #sackclothandashes.

What sort of reparation am I talking about? Almost anything if done with intention can be reparation. There are obvious things we do such as prayers, fasting from certain food or drink, going to Mas, praying before the Blessed Sacrament are traditional ways. But there are also non-traditional, more personal ways; fast from TV, Facebook, yelling, complaining; do a task you dislike for someone else like making beds, washing dishes or taking out the trash; no music; turn off your A/C in the house or car; make meals for the homeless, serve at a soup kitchen. Do something. Do it with intention.

The first reading from today’s Mass reminded me that God knows what is happening and he will take care of us; he is our shepherd.

The word of the Lord came to me:
Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel, 
in these words prophesy to them to the shepherds:
Thus says the Lord GOD: Woe to the shepherds of Israel
who have been pasturing themselves!
Should not shepherds, rather, pasture sheep?
You have fed off their milk, worn their wool,
and slaughtered the fatlings,
but the sheep you have not pastured.
You did not strengthen the weak nor heal the sick nor bind up the injured.
You did not bring back the strayed nor seek the lost,
but you lorded it over them harshly and brutally.
So they were scattered for the lack of a shepherd,
and became food for all the wild beasts.
My sheep were scattered and wandered over all the mountains and high hills;
my sheep were scattered over the whole earth, with no one to look after them or to search for them.

Therefore, shepherds, hear the word of the LORD:
As I live, says the Lord GOD,
because my sheep have been given over to pillage,
and because my sheep have become food for every wild beast,
for lack of a shepherd;
because my shepherds did not look after my sheep,
but pastured themselves and did not pasture my sheep;
because of this, shepherds, hear the word of the LORD:
Thus says the Lord GOD:
I swear I am coming against these shepherds.
I will claim my sheep from them
and put a stop to their shepherding my sheep
so that they may no longer pasture themselves.
I will save my sheep, 
that they may no longer be food for their mouths.

For thus says the Lord GOD: 
I myself will look after and tend my sheep. (Ez 34:1-11)

For more information about this crisis and our response go to Catholic All Year and A Knotted Life. There are also suggested prayers on  both sites.

We need to support each other so let me know you’re joining in with a comment.


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2 thoughts on “Reparation

  • August 22, 2018 at 2:18 pm

    Thank you, Sister. I’m grateful for your wisdom. I want our church to be ready again, too, ready, willing and able.

  • August 23, 2018 at 7:38 am

    Anger! That’s the first emotion! Betrayal … pains my heart ….joining in….#sackclothand ashes


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